It seems we're rounding the corner in the battle of the virus. 2 of the kids are now at least moderately healthy and one is on the up swing! Yay!

I am struggling with knowing when is too much. I am involved in so many things and really enjoy them all but I'm not so sure that I have the time for them. I know that if God is calling me to them that the time will happen, but discerning whether or not it's God calling is another issue. I know that I struggle with pride. A lot. It's so nice to know you're wanted. I am always afraid that I am doing something so I can feel "important", selfish things. How do I know that it's God's calling and not my need for attention? Am I the only one struggling with that kind of thing or is this something that most Christian's fight with?

I am looking into a local Carmelite Convent, I just recently learned that they have a lay order!! I am so excited, I really really really want to be a part of that, as I just talked about doing too much! I have always had such a pull to the Carmelites. I have always loved them. Probably in the romantic notion of being hidden away spending your life in prayer and work. Real work. But even now it seems to appealing. I know I need some help with my prayer life. Badly. I'm hoping this will edge that along. I've heard that the commitment isn't a small one. That's a little scary but I have the support of my husband so I am going to look into it. I don't even know what it entails, so we'll see.

Happy Mother's Day!

Peace!

Well, the virus (as it seems to be per our pediatrician) has now spread to 3 of the 5 kids. Son #1 started in with headache and fever two days ago, Son #2 yesterday and Daughter #2 this afternoon. I don't like viruses. Did I mention that? I can't wait for it to pass!

Our dryer died this week too. We went to the local rent to own place to get something to hold us over until we can afford a new one (imagine, we had already made plans for our money. Silly dryer should have consulted us first!) I didn't realize how much on the last leg our dryer was until we put this not-so- gently- used machine in and started using it. Man. Huge difference! So now we will be eating out MUCH less and having some cheaper food to try to fit a dryer into our budget. I'm almost excited about it!

I pulled out my sling for the first time in months today. It seems Dominic is sick. I took him in on Monday because he just wasn't right and I thought it was his ears again. Nope, nothing. Everything's clear. And here we are today with a fever. The boy wanted his mama and mama wanted her hands free so out comes the sling for the first time since (I think) he started walking. He snuggled most of the morning then fussed to be put down and now he's in bed asleep. My poor baby.